Yesterday was a tough day. Not only was work exceptionally challenging, but I also found out that none of my fertilized eggs made it to embryo status. That was a tough hit. I was so certain that things were progressing so much better this time around. It was different, for sure, but not so far off from last time that none would continue to split. I’m heartbroken.

My doctor suggested a DuoStim process asap to increase odds. Or I can wait and let this process. I think I need to join in to this and have this be the last of the attempts. I have one vial of donor sperm left. Even though I have some trips scheduled, I’m hoping we can squeeze this in this month or suggest next month.

I’m really sad and frustrated. It is difficult to want something that is so out of your control. I suppose it is a good lesson in life. If I can handle this, I guess I can handle anything that comes my way.